Knee replacement was Monday. As I sit here with my leg in a movement machine designed to help increase my range of motion, I start to regret my decision to start running...then my brain goes into hyperdrive and I begin to regret other decisions I have made in my life. STOP
Regret is not helpful for me...or any of us.
It keeps us trapped in the past, keeps us thinking about how things could be different "IF ONLY"
I challenge myself, and you as well to embrace our IF ONLY'S.... Our regrets are an important part of us. Our lessons learned, knowledge gained, and experiences had , and even treasured.
Let's take a look inside my brain...PROCEED WITH CAUTION!
What if I hadn't started running? I actually always hated running, I only did it cause I had to for sports. Yet in late 2009 with my marriage on the rocks, I started to head out for runs to clear my head. I knew it was not good for my knee, I could feel every step, yet that was secondary compared to the release and relief it gave the rest of me...mind, body, spirit and soul. For maybe the first time, I was actually enjoying spending time with myself.
I was a "closet runner" for about a year...no one knew I ran, I was out the door at 4 am most days of the week.
I "came out" as a runner after I entered my first race, a half marathon (not a5 or 10K like most people would start with!). I got in touch with an old friend and co-worker who was a distance runner to ask for advice...and to see if she would want to pace me. It would be a great opportunity to catch up. Cyndi agreed with enthusiasm. The race was more enjoyable than I could have imagined...the energy, adrenaline,excitement and the friendship.
After that race, and over the next year and a half, I have made some of the best friends of my life. I have heard engaging stories, learned, listened and laughed. It is amazing where conversations can go during a 16 mile run.
As I look at the long painful road of recovery ahead of me, I am willing to release any regrets I have for what I have done in my life, because it is through the tough and trying times that we become the people we were born to be.
If you find yourself in a place of regret...an "If only" moment. STOP! take a look from at it from a different angle and see what you gained, the learned experiences, from that regret and release it, knowing that you are stronger and better because of it.